this was my plan for what should have been my biggest effort for you.
do you know i have 50 000 pictures of us. yeah. 50 000.
i transferred it when i was planning for it.
what should have been my last effort.
i planned to book a hotel room.
no. not for sleeping.
i planned to buy a long white sheet. n ill dress it to look like a maze. you know the one that u usually see in a haunted house.
so the selected from 50,000 pic will be our story. starting with the first my space picture to the date.
you will walk along our memories.
it will be night. and there will be little lanterns lamps lighting the picture.
on the background will be my list of songs to play.
our introduction will be -
dishwalla - angels and devils
and that will last the whole maze.
i know you like the song you posted.
but my end song was gonna be by
kina grannis - say something.
i like the lighting in the video.
i wanted my last effort to look like that light on her background.
hers was plain sunlight tho.
at the end of the maze will be a box.
on top of it will be a note.
yes then i’ll be at the balcony.
no then there will be your things in the box.
along with what was supposed to be your engagement ring. u know i went to pavillion countless time to look for your ring. well. i failed. i seek high and low for the code ring. i failed. but i look for it anyway. that’s why there is still no last effort.
i couldn’t find a ring expensive enough n lovely enough for u.
because u like it. u wanted a ring.
u wanted one too right? for our should have been engagement.
that will be my parting gift to you.
throw it. or anything.
that was my last effort.
whether the effort is a success or not.
whether it is a yes or a no.
i will go to you.
during the kina grannis song.
n sing a long to it.
and i would be so beautiful.
as beautiful as the thin girl in your infiammo banner.
i will kiss you.
and when the song ends.
the decision will be in your hand.
because ive packed your things.
ive given you my last effort.
this is the end. and ill walk away.
or i will stay. its all u.
that was it.
my last for you.
never another effort as big.
never another love as deep.
the me that wanted to do that died.
because i wanted be the wife whom husband can trust to not sleep with another.
but u know how i believe what u say so much. i dissapointed u to that point.
i was too sad. too mad at myself.