i used to not be satisfied with the amount of miscalls i received from you. and now that ive got it i dont think miscalls meant more than having u beside me

dear sayang.
tonight i cried myself to sleep.
i dont think i can do this anymore.
crying just because i cant see u tonight.
i feel majorly obsessed.
i dont like myself.
i miss you so much that i cried.

i cant keep crying knowing u dont care if u cant meet me tonight.
i cant keep crying knowing u wont feel sorry tomorrow.
im just being stupid.
ill go to work on my own.

i dont think i can be this.
loving u too much.
i dont want this.

i dont think ull ever cry this much for me.
n i dont think ull try hard to get me back.
and its killing me.
loving u so much like this alone..

its just too sad..
i know u wont call me so many times
i know u wont come to beg…

and im killing myself like this..
i just want someone who’s afraid of losing me. who would try until the end to keep me his.

someone who will spend every time he can for me instead of sulking.
someone who wont give up because he loves me. not someone who leave me because of stupid reasons.

i love u.
goodnight.
assalamualaikum.
goodbye sayang.
i promised i wont cry this much for a guy who is not afraid of losing me.
and ur not afraid..so im leaving.